I refuse to be the same. I reject all of the hypocrisy that this world demands out of me. I abhor all the superficial lifestyle I have found myself experiencing. I am sick and tired of all the pretending. When I want to laugh, I have to hold my breath to avoid offending anyone. When I am angry, I have to calm down so that others don’t feel intimidated by me. When I feel sad, I have to act as if I am content so that others don’t feel sorry for me. Enough with the hypocrisy! If I am angry at you, can’t I just express it without jeopardizing our friendship? If I want to talk to you as a stranger, why not do it without being labeled “weird” or “intrusive”? If I desire to help the unfortunate ones, does that make me an enabler? I want to step out of my comfort zone and connect to others. But there are so many barriers, so many social norms that prohibit me from being myself. I am not talking about harming anyone or being obviously inappropriate. I am talking about being genuine in my ways of interacting with others. Why Can’t I do this simple act of legitimate, casual conversation with others, without the automatic facade that society taught me to present. I am against any status quo that impedes me from safely being myself. Maybe I sound like I am rambling here, and I hope to be more specific in the future. But even now, why do I have to worry if I make perfect sense? Please, just listen and try to understand. Am I the only one who desires to have a more profound lifestyle with others? I am not comfortable with just going through the motions. I want to be myself. I want to be transparent.