I wake up in the morning and feel like myself.
Take a shower, eat breakfast, get dressed, and leave the house.
Then automatically I become the “other me”.
I enter my work place and start acting not like the “me” who woke up in the morning.
My mother calls me, and I answer , and automatically become the “third me”
My old friend talks to me, and then I become the “fourth me”
I act and think different with all of these encounters. Society tells me this is normal, it is healthy, polite.
I look back into it, and feel I am a hypocrite. Why can’t I be the same with everyone? Why am I expected to comparmentalize?
I feel uncomfortable with these divided selves. I am not being myself. I want to be myself.
I want to be the same, to be transparent, instead of living multiple lives.