Shifting gears: developing a new perspective in life 

Beginning to explore new ways of seeing this existence we call life.   Starting not to care so much (or at all) about what others think of me.  Letting go of an unexplained anger that is consuming me.  Learning to say goodbye to decaying loved ones without regrets.  Living each moment peacefully. 

 These have been my latest challenges.

I don’t want to continue to live through the motions.  I am beginning to realize that caring about what others think about me is very detrimental… it can limit how much I can be myself.   Because that’s what I want to be: myself.   Manifest my talents..  Express my opinions freely.   Do what I love.  Accept my limitations. 

I am not getting any younger, so I am taking a new shift in my life. 

Whether people like it or not, I am moving forward in my journey.   I am not stopping unless it is completely necessary.  Maybe a pause here or there to deal with pain and suffering that life brings sometimes. But on a continuous path to growth and enlightenment.   

I am tired of pretending . I am tired of hesitating and waiting for something to happen or to come.  I am moving forward.

 I am introverted , and that is not a disability or a problem. It’s just the way I am.   It is also a label, like many labels we put on ourselves to try to make sense of this senseless world.  To try to identify with something … to belong to something.  

But I will express myself more freely. More assertively.  

Thanks for reading. 

There will be more. 🙂

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The bell 

Have you ever noticed that we become weak but wiser when we get older? Everyone’s life can be illustrated with a bell shaped line (like in statistics’ bell curve).  We all are born being weak, frail, naked, cold, and confused.  We are also dependent on others’ total care and protection.  If we are not well taken care of, we can fall and injure ourselves easily.

We are also under the same condition when we’re are close to death in our advanced age.  During our last days we are also weak, frail, naked, cold, and confused.  But during the rest of our lives, in the middle part of the bell, we learn more, develop, become stronger , more intelligent, and faster.  Our lives become more enthusiastic and adventurous.  We tend to feel more successful and busy.  This can be experienced by reaching the highest point in our professional career, buying a new house or car,  traveling around the world, having the maximum number of friends, and manifesting our artistic or  musical talents to the maximum.

  But after this high point in our lives, we start to get tired, slower, and limited. Our health begins to deteriorate, our strengths are not so great  and our goals are no longer as important. We slowly begin to deteriorate and lose interest in certain parts of our lives that we once were so obsessed with. We also begin to see loved ones deteriorate and die around us.  We may develop other interests that are less ambitious.  We start to get “older.” 

And this is when we reach the point that we once began at.  Our lowest point as far as strengths and abilities .  But at the same time , this return to our “lowest points” is also the return to our selves .  The return to our natural beings.  The return to the real nature of our existence. We are no longer fixated on our ambitions, our dreams, and our goals.  We are no longer lost in our thoughts and fantasies about what we should do and who we should become.  We simply face the stage in life where we have to accept who we really are.

 We begin to be forced to deny our egos and accept our true selves . Some of us receive this stage in life with appreciation and joy.  Others receive it with regrets and desperation. But we all receive it eventually. 

It is almost like returning to dust… 

Returning to nature.